Happy Halloween poeple. I love halloween it's so much fun. I just wish I coul dhave a party but this year was kinda inpossible Krissy wasn't comign back, Carolyn and lissy where out all day saturday and andrew is working all day today and doesn't get out till 6 which wouldn't give us much time before lissy and I had to go back to college adn beisde that I have a precalc exam I gotta study for. Oh well maybe I'll do a christmas party since I'll be off for winter break.

well I'm transferring as the title suggests I'm going to be a Ramapo student soon the main reason I'm transferring isn't because I don’t like Rutgers it's because living there is costing a freaking fortune and my grandparents aren't really helping pay for it any more so money is tight and it would save me a lot if I lived home. So hence I will soon be a commuter student of Ramapo hopefully by this coming January. My mom feels really bad about this so she say's she'll get me a bit better of a car since I'll be driving on the highway every day. Still not thrilled though. It so stupid that you can make money unless you have a college degree and you can’t get a college degree unless you have money. I hate this it's exactly what I was afraid of having to start my life $40,000 in debt. This sucks.

well this week was weird my teeth still hurt but on the plus side I got a 64% on my Precalc exam but that’s actually pretty good a lot of people had like fifties and lower so I actually did ok and I haven't taken the cognition exam yet because I got a really bad tooth ache the day I was supposed to take it so I begged the TA to move it and she was really understanding about it she is so nice. I'm gonna take that exam on Monday. Then due to the Friday tooth ache I made a 8:30 am appointment for the dentist so and he wound up pulling a wisdom tooth cause it was pushing on my sinuses and making them hurt so he took it out and gave me a prescription for Vicaden to relieve the pain so I been a little bit loopy I feel like I had a little bit too much to drink you know that ADD feeling and the it's all good feeling but I'll probably be back to normal in a week.

well this weekend was so incredibly dull I spent the whole time studying mainly for my precalc exam but I think that it will pay off cause I just took the exam and I think i did pretty well. I hoping for a C that’s all I need is a C . Well in other news on Monday I had to wait three hours at the doctors for a 5 minute visit where she gave me anther prescription cause my sinus infections till hasn't cleared up. My teeth are killing me and he sinus pressure around my nose is not pleasant I really hope that it clears up soon I don’t think i can take this for much longer, still I'm better off than Lissy she has a horrible cold I think it's the same one that I had. Oh and more good news my aunt is doing much better she is out of the ICU she's till in the hospital but at least she can get up now and walk around well. also I got my meal card fixed so it should work fine now. Oh also this weekend lee came back from rehab I hope he really has changed I don’t know what mom and dad will do if he hasn't I don’t know oh well lets just hope that he has really changed.

well yesterday was one of those awful days that just totally suck and you know you should just stay at home so the bad stuff will stop happening to you but for what ever reason you cant. Yesterday started with me over going to class and on my way to class it started to pour and guess who forgot her umbrella. So when I got to cognition I was soaked and once I got in the door of the class it stopped pouring and just drizzled. So Then I sat through two classes cold and wet. Also my precalc teacher decided to scare the whole class with a lecture about the difficulty of his exam coming up. I finally get home to discover that my ID card doesn't work and it wont let me into the building so a guy let me in and said I better call housing so I did and they said the card is probably scratched so I went to the RU connection office to get a new ID. They say um you not registered for any classes and my heart stopped I was so panicked so I hurry back to the dorm to call the register to find out what was going on (I had anther guy let me in) they say relax your registered I don’t know what they are talking about so I go back to the RU connection office and tell them then I find out the reason it should I wasn't registered was because the card was linked to the wrong SS# so they fixed that and then I did the NJPIRG new voter thing for a while then I went ang got some Chinese food for dinner only to find I'm 2 dollars short the guy was nice though and said here take the food and come back and pay me later. So I get back to dorm soaked again cause it has been raining like crazy and cold because of the wind and then I find guess what 2 dollars in pocket so I go back get even more wet pay the guy and walk back to dorm thoroughly soaked through and by now I'm tired and upset so I sit down to watch TV and because for the storm we don’t get any stations only UPN. It was such a bad days and you know what today not shaping out to be any better I went to the Dinning hall only to discover y new card doesn't work so lissy used her guest pass for me and I late went to the RU connection office again and they said oh well your meal plan is linked to your old card they tried o fix it and then said that I have to come back later with my social security card which is at my home up north f*cking great so lissy is gonna let me use her guest passes tonight and tomorrow I don’t get it why do bad things have to keep happening why cant good thing happen I don’t get why I cant have a simple happy life Liss and I were talking about this last night life is suffering I realized if I were to add up all the times I was truly happy it would barley add up to 1/2 a year maybe less. I swear I don’t think I can take much more of this why do bad things have to just keep happening.

It is so nice haveing th house to myself my mom wouldn't let me go and vist my brother in the end she said if I was sick I should just stay home and rest and omg it is so wonderful having the house to your self not haveing all the noise no worrying baout waking some one else up no loud brother to have to deal with just utter rest and relaxation granted I have to study for my exam in infant and child development but it wont be that hard and even if it is he drops the lowest grade so nothing to get in a teist about I love have a place to myself god I cant wait till I get my own apartment.

god I feel like shit I have such a bad cold I'm coughing like crazy, my thoart hurts, I cnt breath through my nose at all and on top of it all I'm so tired it's taking all the strength i have not to just pass out on the floor. I really just wanna rest but i cant because I have so much to do my schedual is seriously getting out of hand I have no free time any more I'm constantly running around trying to get every thing done and i have 2 exams coming up and I have no idea when I'm gonna be able to study I need a break so badly I dont know if I'll make it through this week without haveing a nervous break down.

my mom is insanely hypocritical she ahs a bad so she come in and starts yelling about how the house inst clean and how we should be helping her out more and you know what fine I so we did then we got to here while we were cleaning about what pigs we are and how selfish we you know what I'm a pretty good kid I go to college get good grades I don’t smoke I don’t drink I'm not pierced or tattooed and I mostly do what she asks of me. I mean come on so when I got home I was tired and didn’t feel like doing the dishes right away excuse me. I mean when ever I come after a bad day and act all bitchy my mom yells at me telling me just because I had a bad day doesn’t mean I get to take it out on every one else well I'd like to know what the hell she was doing last night she had bad day so she gets to come home and be bitch and when I tell her what she tell's me the just because her day sucked doesn't mean she gets to be a jerk to all of us and she says that I'm being insensitive and to the fact that she had a bad day I mean for god sake could she be any more hypocritical about this uhg if there one thing I hate it's people being blatantly hypocritical.

ok well today was supposed to be that visiblity making party were we were gonna make a bunch of posters for the NJPIRG genreal interest meeting so on wed night I phone banked inother words I called a whole bunch of people and asked them to come and help me make someposters and 10 people sadi yes and I was like great even only 4 people show up that will still me out alot. Well you wanna know how many people showed 0 thats right none not one frelling person was there. I mean come on if your not gonna come just lie and say you have class or your working or that you cant walk cuase someone schopped off your legs I dont care what excuse you give just say your not coming is that too much to ask that you dont say you would love to come and that you'll definalty be there if you have no intentionof actually going.

well yesterdya was crazy it's kinda kewl having this internship I met a few really nice people so far and I'm mdoing somthing that makes a difference I'm helping to get people my age to vote and I'll be helping the homeless and doing whole bunch of stuff for the enviornmentit's good. Right now I've been put incharge of visiblity for both the voters blitz and for the general interest meeting thats this tuesday. It's kind of a lot of work but I dont mind the type of work and hey it keeps me busy also like I keep telling myself it will help me get ither into gradguate school or get a job. It sucks thought that I dont get college credit orpay for this but I'm looking at this as a stepping stone this way maybe nex year I'll be able to get an internship where I get paid and I get college credits.